You give me all the good reasons to stay here, forever. There is no place I’d rather be. 

This is the safest haven I have been longing for so long. 😊

It is always unfair to force people to smile when they are not in their best selves. 

We cannot be happy all the time. 

And that is what being human all about. 

We are dealing with different things and have a forever-changing emotion. We all have gone through hard times. 

Asking people to smile is like denying that they have feeling too. 

Instead, approach them in a good manner. 

Ask what might have been bothering their mind. 

We are all broken anyway. So let’s be nice. 

Things will get harder for sure but I believe it will be better with you here. It might not be easy but we will keep holding on. 

I have always been afraid to be vulnerable

To tell the secrets I have been keeping to myself

It is not easy to tell everything to anyone

Because open up to wrong person would hurt even more than the initial pain

There are things that I can barely explain to myself

Sometimes I don't even understand myself

But,

Being vulnerable to the person you trust is the best feeling ever

They take the initiative to understand you

And they don't simply judge you

You can be your truest self and knowing that they would still love you 

.......

It is nice to have someone like you

I would always cherish the moment we spent together

Although it was almost always virtually

I have never been happier, 

Thank you

Thanks to you

Every day gets better

And I no longer write about sad things that much

I would stand by you forever (insyaAllah)

No matter how tough life would be

We are going to get through it, together

Sometimes I wish you would know the things I would never say. 

Cause sometimes the silence speaks louder and better than my voice 

And how I wish you would just understand 🙁

In this life, you will get disappointed on no matter how much you try but you are still not good enough.

Despite being the best version of yourself, there will be other people who are better than you.

You will be devastated when you are struggling so hard but others get it so easily.

Perhaps that is life. Unfair in the eyes of some people. Because we only see things with our desire. The way we want to perceive things are according to our own needs.

But Allah knows things differently. Each and every struggle that you are facing is all written by Him. He directs our lives the way it should be and not always the way we want it to be. Trust Him in whatever decision you are making. Ask for guidance all the way through.

In time, you will feel that you are becoming less important to the people you love. You would start to realise every single thing that they used to do and no longer did. Is it a normal grown- up things? Perhaps it is. But surely it is painful to live day by day realising that they have changed. They might not know that they have changed and would most probably blame you for your changes instead.

Anyhow, life goes on.

Today I saw the evidence of how the behavioural change of a person would affect another. It is rather an expected reaction and inevitable connection between those two. Maybe I am trying to rationalize things while I am hurting. Try to find reasons for everything that happened. Sometimes it is good to know but sometimes it hurts even more. Now, here I am ranting about unnecessary things..haha..it is not easy to stay at ease when you are sensitive to people's changes.