Everyone is a liar
Repeatedly making same mistake
Expecting different outcome
"Dan (ingatlah) Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan untuk mereka menyembah dan beribadat kepadaKu." (51:56)
Life has not been kind to me lately
Trust has been broken
Irreparable mistake
Figuring out way to get out from this vicious cycle
Stuck
Trapped
Lost
No way to go
Want to go back where innocence was bliss
Because
Now I don't trust anyone
One more mistake will cost this whole thing
Just one reason is enough to let go
2021
Too many things had happened
Let's do some
recap
Oct 2017 -
graduated from medical school
Oct 2018 - Started
housemanship at HSB
2 July 2020 - Got
married
Dec 2020 - started
floating medical at HSB
Feb 2021 -
placement at Hospital Jitra
27 April 2021 -
delivered a baby boy
April 2021 -
August 2021 : Maternity leave
Alhamdulillah,
Everything
happened according to Allah's plan
Some things were
unpredictable but worth to be grateful for
Entering
motherhood was not an easy road
Some days were
okay, some days were difficult
The tiredness and
anxiousness might taking away my sanity
Planning to take
MRCP after the maternity leave might seems impossible but actually
do-able
So these are the
ways to keep my sanity throughout this never-ending journey
1. Get an adequate sleep
- Not too long,
not too short,
Just sufficient
enough to revive my energy
2. Allocate a “me-time”
- Anytime of the day, preferable fixed at an appointed time
3. Don’t procrastinate
- When you feel like doing it at the very moment, just do it
(especially washing dishes :P)
4. Crying is not a crime
- You may cry your lungs out, and when you are done, resume you
responsibility
5. Ask for help
- You might want to act all tough, but trust me, don’t get stuck
on your own
6. Be responsible
- This child is a responsibility you swear to take care of
7. Do one thing at a time
- There are so many things to be done, just do something that
messed up your mind the most
- Do a list of priority
8. Study one topic a day
- One is better than none
9. Give reward to yourself accordingly
10. Avoid getting carried away with petty things
- Talk to your partner about things you dislike although sometimes
it will lead to unfavourable circumstances
- Don’t go to sleep with anger
- Forgive is way easy than fighting (lesser time consumed as well)
11. Eat healthily
12. Most important of all - Always pray to Allah to ease your
journey
Till next time.